This is what 4:00 AM can look like.
When you can't sleep and it's impossible to be comfortable and the walls are closing in and it's not socially appropriate to call anyone or wake anyone - there is no emergency here. You may be restless, but nothing is wrong. So stop fretting and self-pitying and raging against the peaceful sleeper next to you. Just stop. Do something else with that energy. It might be 4:00 AM, but so what?
Rediscover how therapeutic it is to sit down and play the piano (with headphones!) - to let a random bunch of notes fall under your fingers and sound so pretty that you contemplate writing them down (but you don't because, let's face it, it's 4:00 AM and you haven't composed anything since you were seventeen).
Rediscover that you can shape your experiences, and just because everyone else says / does / expects / thinks doesn't mean you can't have it be another way. Just because everyone else says 4:00 AM is for sleeping, and you can't, doesn't make this bad. 4:00 AM is for living. So choose life.
"Rejoice in the Lord always.
I will say it again: rejoice.
Let your gentleness be evident to all.
The Lord is near.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation [pray]...
Whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable -
if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -
think about such things...
And the God of peace will be with you."