I'm normally a big advocate of lists, but right now I'm glorying in the fact that some things are not for today. Profitable things, things that arguably 'should' get done - like dishes, showering, replying to that text. It's always tempting to try and squeeze just one more thing in. But here's the thing I'm realising more forcefully everyday:
How I do things is so much more important than whether or not they get done.
"Do everything without grumbling or arguing,
so that you may become blameless and pure,
'children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation'.
Then you will shine... like stars in the sky..."
If I can't meet that standard, if what I'm about to do is actively going to undermine my attitude and joie de vivre, it's really not worth attempting. There is no point taking on that extra chore or that little unasked for act of kindness if it tips me over the edge. As productive and near perfect as achieving that extra goal might make me seem, it's entirely worthless if the upshot of expending that energy is a sense of depletion and resentment for all the little things that have chipped away at my resources.
There is enough for today. My daily bread has been given to me. When that stops feeling true, that's when I know I need to refocus. That's when I know I need to stop running around trying to 'do' and spend a little time just being. Being comfortable in my own skin. Being at rest with the God who daily carries our burdens and who, with characteristically dark humour, assures us it's pointless taking on more than a day's worth of trouble. Being at play in this great adventure of life that is interesting and challenging and anything but mundane. Being at peace with the chaos, the disordered and the unresolved.
Because tomorrow is another day - a chance to tackle anew all the stuff that crowds in and needs attention.
Tomorrow is another day. And most things really can wait.